February 2012
4 posts
8 tags
Sabotage
Because I like you so much I know that we are doomed. These so called life lessons teach me only to distrust what I want most,
and what I want most is you.
8 tags
Stop telling me that I’m my own worst enemy. I’m human and I’m allowed to have moments of insecurity and visions of the absurd. You are my worst enemy because you try to convince me that what I’m feeling is destroying me. The only thing destructive to my character is your narrow view of love.
9 tags
Not For Me
Armadillo skin
moonlight thin purple veins within
Stretched a canvas across my lungs
When you played that song…
Crowd pleaser
acrylic smile of best coast leisure
Lost a girl you could have loved
When you played that song…
La la. La la. La laaaaa.
4 tags
Im starting to understand how it works. There are the girls that you fuck, the girls that you marry, and the girls that you fall in love with for a moment, realize how scary it feels, think about all the other options you still have, and leave without explanation. Then you find the girl you marry. She was never going to be me, was she? She’s the one with the long, straight hair. You always...
January 2012
13 posts
9 tags
NYC
Stretched thin like a thread through an eyelet, I weave my way through harrowing lines.
So close to finding an escape route,
Rubber to ground, don’t turn around til you can’t hear a sound.
This city speaks in tongues and teargas, I burn my ears just to choke on the noise.
Years lost to virtue and schedules
…. and glimmers of rapture.
Heartbreak in a dusty crawlway, I inch...
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Trust is something I have an issue with. Maybe it’s because all my issues are with men.
6 tags
To Win You Over
My slaughter of syllable alone could rupture your ear
and you decide you never were and won’t ever be here
still I place finger to key and force rhythm from rhyme
try for resplendence in verse only to tap out a stale line.
I could be the muse to your music and the net to your fall
arouse the lilt of your lyrics and the pitch in your call
and so I memorize quotes from your favorite...
7 tags
Subconscious
I keep dreaming of you and all your damn tattoos and in it you grab my hand and throw me up against a wall
maybe we are in that same bathroom stall.
You taste sickly sweet like curdled yeast so I lick your hooded sweatshirt and inhale its fresh scent but your stink seeps into my skin like the ink on your neck.
How dare you come back now that I’m finally well, and to think I used to...
5 tags
One Line
Don’t pretend you can’t hear me I’m calling your game a selfish invasion of head trips and fame so fly out to the coast and play me hot and cold but remember back home is where your love story unfolds.
7 tags
Merry Go Round
Leap you said and I said no, I intend to fly instead.
Love you said and I said no, I’m bound to swallow lead.
Leave you said and I said no, I have no options ahead.
Lie you said and I said no, it’s too late for us to pretend.
Leap you said and I said no, I intend to fly instead.
4 tags
A morning ritual shower rains down its candor.
Truth spills itself over my skin and washes away hope and progress.
It’s just another day that you are absent for.
6 tags
Haiku For Brooklyn!
pigeons proud as peacocks
blaring street below
belts a brass symphony
1 tag
I like to punish myself for the things that are out of my control. It’s easier than punishing you.
8 tags
Nursery Rhyme
Drummed your fingers on my thigh,
Pinched my nerve on your first try.
Warmed your lips upon my brow,
Singed my cloak of baby down.
Cradled your head atop my breast,
Broke my heart and made a mess.
13 tags
Certifiable
If sinking deeper means thinking clearer then bring the quicksand,
Lose the upper hand
Create another plan.
These paper coffins cut from scraps of magazines filled with brighter dreams,
Just lies that carry weight
Ties that play with fate.
I may be losing my mind but it’s better than always losing you,
So I take my chances
AND Fuck romances.
You are a dream, a scheme, a deleted...
10 tags
Saunter
Every passing minute saunters by
Like whispered poems
From your lips
I found my own voice ambling on
Like luck starved travelers
Lost in awe
We let nostalgic whim enchant us
Like gilded magnets
Forced too close
7 tags
Single or You
As a reluctant ear to pedestrian dribble,
I realize how much
I’m in love with you.
And you can’t even hear me above all the noise.
December 2011
4 posts
13 tags
New Year. New Me.
He whispered in my ear, “It was always you. It will always be you.” How romantic a moment except it was confessed at a dive bar on 9th Avenue after several beers while his hand was being held by another girl’s.
You should have fought harder for me. I’m sick of blaming myself. I won’t do it anymore.
It’s not my fault your life ended before ours began.
6 tags
Loser
Scared off another. Wish I had wit. Systematic failure after just one hit.
Tongue torn, brain hacked, no fight, hijacked.
Can’t seem to win one back this time.
Well, maybe I could if I had a dope rhyme.
6 tags
What good is my heart
if it is always stuck on my sleeve?
9 tags
Resolutions
What happened to our insolence?
Now we snicker behind their backs.
I liked it better before we decided to be nice,
as if a front could forgive our past.
You say reform for a new year.
What if I’m not finished with the last?
November 2011
3 posts
8 tags
Black Book
What a hateful little girl.
Reduced to tears and prescriptions.
I’ve got a black book with your name in it.
I’ve got a target with your face on it.
Betrayed but not beaten.
I’ll find my voice again.
Another lesson learned too late.
Another stash of memories to hate.
13 tags
The Long Goodbye
A character flaw was my muse.
She left me when I tried to reconcile our differences.
All that’s left of her are the pills and empty notebooks.
7 tags
Boyfriend
I will be gone with the next offer of greater worth. You think you will be a martyr, vindicated to let me go.
You will be reminded of me with every passing song.
My scent will haunt your pillow, where you rest at night, dark and quiet but for the sidewalk stranger.
I will hurt you and you will pretend the smoke of your pipe numbs your soul but all it will do is burn the embers brighter.